Don't read the white part.
You must be thinking "Why the fuck do you blog about the white part if you don't want readers to read it?".
My reply is :
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IT'S MY BLOG & I WANNA KEEP IT AS A MEMORY, DUMBASS!

" 2 or 3 days before the competition, i was effing scared.
I smsed Wei Xuan and a few others friends.
I felt like crying (not that much) because i'm scared.
But today, the urge to cry is oh-so-great.
Before Wei Xuan went in, i was okay.
But after she went in, i was effing scared.
I felt like crying. Tears welled in my eye but i managed to control it.
Sze Xin and Jia Qi brought me, Yi Shiuan and Yoke Leng to the lobby to give us some tips.
I wanted to cry many times but i managed to control it still.
After Wei Xuan shot, she came to look for us.

She was sad, i can see that.
Tears welled in her eyes. Her face turned red.
She tried very very hard to control her tears but it rolled down her cheeks.
I understand how she feels.
At that point of time, i really felt like crying with her.
The tears came into my eyes again and again and again. That's another 3 more times.
I was on the verge on crying when i told myself
"Don't cry now. It'll make many worried."
Once again, i controlled it. You didn't know how hard it was. You didn't know.
Really.

We went back to get myself ready.
I knew that i have to be brave and act like as if nothing worries me because i'm afraid that the others will be worried for me.
I didn't know how i managed to act like as if i'm fine and everything.
I told them that i'll be going in as a warrior and kill 40 people (which are my target cards).
I even joked and laughed along with them.
But what they didn't know was that I was fucking scared inside.
F-u-c-k-i-n-g
S-c-a-r-e-d.
I wanted to tear, really. It just feels like i'm ready to burst anytime.
I didn't know how i did it. They all seemed to be convinced.
Then i thought to myself,

I must be a really good actress - to have them all fooled.

As i'm typing this, i teared a little. It feels great though.
I broke my personal best record. I got 365/400.
Not satisfied but still quite happy.
A last bit to end this personal colum :
Team is love.
I ♥love TEAM! "

C-Boys! Do your best tomorrow!
No stress, just go out there and *WHACK!*
Best of luck :D

Got 365/400.
9th in Nationals and 24th in individual position.
Thanks to all those who flooded me with messages and everyone who wished me well and gave me support :D
I love you people ♥
Very tired now. Goodbye :D